Most wonderful and touching poetry; words can often bring us to our knees in sorrow, in disappointment, in grief just as they can make us laugh right out loud. You've turned painful and unlovely words into something of beauty, both of you. Be content, if not happy, with that. Most haven't been given the ability to use words in the ways that you both do. Be happy about that, too, Alex and Dot.
Your words bring emotions to me too. I was never familiar with autism until it found its way into the classroom where I taught, by way of a wonderful young man. That was years ago and though today he and I have an ongoing friendship, when I see him he still doesn't let me see his eyes. I have no way of knowing his eye color but I can describe this good friend of mine very well. It doesn't matter, the eye color, he is still my friend.
And Rosie/Dot. I am all too familiar with grief. Time combined with your words are great healers.
Keep writing. It helps you and it for sure helps me to learn; every day I learn more and more. Thank you for letting me glimpse into your worlds.