Ok, I owe you all an explanation.
I have ADHD and a depression disorder. Occasionally, I have very bad days where I feel completely hopeless.
Today was one of those days. I felt like I failed to take care of the plants properly, resulting in their demise. I felt like I let my plants down.
That and the fact that I have been very stressed today because my grandpa has been developing severe dementia.
It's just been a bad day. Sorry for my outburst.