Doris, I know the feeling. I had seeds I got from BGI (4 packs) and only have 3 seedlings. I then ordered seeds from Shaun and have almost 100% germination. I think they have to be very fresh for my level of skill. I also started Shaun's seeds outdoors and the others were inside during winter.
I don't do well with seeds or cuttings in winter. Hopefully, I will have a greenhouse this winter.